today has been terrible, i cant even explain the pain i am in.


god


cysts are bitches
i have decided


my cysts suck major ass and i hate them


god


i have been wired on pain meds all day
they work
just make me have a huge migraine as well
so i take more
haha


to kill that migraine
and when they start to ware off, ill have to take even more so i dont get a migraine again

and it will just continue


as i get more and more addicted to the shit




or i run out
haha


dam



melonie needs to fuckin pop
im sitting here waiting for her to go into labor

any day now


augh
god dam you jemiah, want me to like you? fuckin be born already, get the show going!


dam it



i am in a pissy mood


i miss my sewing machine
i miss the way it makes me feel acomplished


kennys asleep
he had a bad day
had to come home to me in the room, covered up laying in the dark as to not make my migraine any worst




i would hate to be him sometimes
having to deal with me being this way



idk how he does it
i ordedred us pizza
cause i feel bad im a terrible girlfriend sometimes
but he loves me


he holds me till he falls asleep


im waiting for the pizza to get here

hell wake up to the smell and eat it with a smile on his face

i am looking forward to him smiling
i miss it when he has bad days
i miss him



pizzas here, g2g